Living in hell

I can't help but feel so hopeless and alone. I have no one. My dad is too busy being with his girlfriend and drugs. My grandma is too busy treating him like a queen. The only time my grandpa talks to me is when he is bitching about something. My mom is too busy "devoting her life to Jehovah" to try and help me. I can't trust my boyfriend for shit because all he has ever done is hurt me. I have no money for anything. I don't know how I will possibly go to college with no money, no lap top, no anything. Life seems so pointless and such a difficult task. People are not made to live alone, how will I get through this alone? I have no one to talk to, no one to confide in. This house is no longer a home. I am forced to hide my belongings to keep them from being stolen. How can you live your life hiding things in your own house as if it is some kind of prison? Where can I possibly go to escape this? How long will this go on? She should protect me from evil and things that deppress me and hurt me, but instead she feeds it and nurtures it as if he's an innocent little bird. She is willing to throw away the rest of her family for one stupid mess up. He isn't the one that is going to be taking care of her. Why does she care for him with such stupidity?!

Change in arrangements.

Recently I learned that my dad would be coming home from prison. I call him my dad but that is only the truth by blood. My real parents are my grandparents. They have always been their for me.
Because of my oldest sister and her two younger siblings being taken away from their mother by CPS, they will soon be living with us. That means that my father no longer will. Not sure which would be worse; crying children or a drug addict who has a problem with making valuables disappear. I guess getting to keep all my things is a big upside. Nothing but cleaning has been going on in the house (whenever I'm not busy working). Everything must be in great condition so that the social worker will allow the kids to be transported here. I am so relieved that they will be safe with us soon. I cannot sleep soundly knowing that they are with complete strangers.